Monday, April 30, 2012
How do you get over the death of a loved? Are you ever able to take a deep breath again without feeling pain? I have tried several times to write something down on what used to be one of my " guilty pleasures" only to close the lid and hid away somewhere, I've spent days on end sporting my "new look" as my husband calls it of greasy hair, no make-up and pajamas...I've taken afternoon naps and woke in darkness.....People say, "You've got to try to get through this" but no one tells you how.....I've bought beautiful flowers for my yard only to watch them wilt away and die...I thought I would be more prepared than I was...Surely, I would be grateful for the end of her suffering...But the void that is left behind is enormous....I have been surrounded by death my entire adult life, first working at a Nursing Home, then behind a Surgical mask, and I've watched as it pierced through the Emergency Room door....But watching my own Mother pass away has been the hardest thing for me to get through.....Maybe it was the long days and even longer nights spent in the hospital before her death that I think about...Maybe it was promises she made me keep....Decisions that had to be made....All I know is I long for the sound of her voice...or the smell of her hair....It is so hard knowing you'll never hear your Mama's voice again........
I remember looking around the funeral home after my Mothers visitation at all the beautiful flowers, pictures and quilts, every room was full of things that people had sent for my Mother. My family are mountain people remember, and things are done a little differently! People not only send flowers for a funeral they will also send Mountain and Primitive Crafts in lieu of flowers (My husband and I had never seen this before, it was amazing).But I was walking around looking at all the beautiful things and I noticed each one had been reserved for certain family members....There was one thing reserved for me......I remember someone saying to me the day she passed away, "Angie, I know you probably wish everyone would go home because it's loud in here, but I promise you after your Moms funeral, it's gonna get real quite".......And it did!!!! All I could think about was my one arrangement....Only One!!!....What does that say about me???? That has really tormented me!!!! FYI...Your Farmville Friends on Facebook will not be there for you when you need them!!! So, I came up with a back up plan...Besides rethinking my life.....I told my sister in law if I go before she does that I was starting a
"Church Bus/Cracker Barrel Fund", I would start putting enough money in a jar for her to bring some mourners to my funeral...I, in turn will provide gas and meals! But I want the good mourners!!!! The serious falling out kind!!!(After all I'm paying for Cracker Barrel not Waffel House)
Today's anxiety level is a 9 (I've been taking care of my Daddy and I'm pretty sure I could file legal separation papers from him and it be granted...Trust me..The judge WOULD understand)...
But today I will be thankful for the courage to write what I have written.....And Try To Breathe...........
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
The Webster Dictionary defines the word time as....
a : the measured or measurable period during which an action, process, or condition exists or continues : duration b : a nonspatial continuum that is measured in terms of events which succeed one another from past through present to future c : leisure
Friday, September 23, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Wishing you all a "cool" day!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
"Better get on these soon before they get soft don't ya think".....I asked was there something sparkly in the bottom of all those bags for me when I finished...I'll give you three guesses what the answer to that was...........But you won't need them!
Friday, August 5, 2011
Happy Anniversary to my wonderful children..My life is so blessed beyond measure because of you!
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
I hear (wink,wink) she's quite funny and is going to be giving away some wonderful products soon! And her natural beauty tips are awesome! Just saying!
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
My husband informed me yesterday that the North Ga apples will be ready for picking in three weeks, I looked at him and replied, "Oh Boy!".......He said that I didn't sound like I meant it..........I assured him I would work on my attitude........................................................So far it's not changed!
I have also decided to take my show (so to speak) on the road, and no I've not ran away and joined the carnival which by the way was my life long dream to be a "Carny" at the tender age of nine, I mean where else can you wear cut-off shorts and some old Lynyrd Skynyrd tee-shirt to work everyday....I wasn't taught to dream big....What can I say!!!.......
I was invited to sell my homemade natural bath and body products in a couple of local Farmers Markets
I am 100% over the moon in love with this little boy, he has completely turned our lives upside down...I just want to eat him.....Those lips are begging to be kissed...And that wild and crazy head of hair he has...Don't get me started!!!! The adoption should be finalized sometime in August, I've never seen my daughter and son in law more exhausted and in love and complete than they are now...They are truly blessed!!! And we (Papa and Grammie) are do some spoiling!!!
Friday, May 27, 2011
Saturday, May 14, 2011
I celebrated a birthday in March that made me realize I was truly middle aged....The first half of the month I spent in a fetal position.....The second half I just cried!! A lady told me that middle age was "magical"for women.....I stood in front of a mirror naked and prayed that the "magic" would begin quickly and start with my sagging breast.....So far..No magic has happened!
I am still twenty pounds heavier than I would like to be, and with swimsuit season fast approaching I shall require a bathing suit with enough Lycra and Spandex in it to cut off my circulation if I want everything "held up and in".............Close your eyes and imagine that....Hot Right!!!
I AM STILL EXTREMELY MENOPAUSAL, And that alone is a 24/7 thrill ride!
I still have a ravishing affair with cupcakes, I've thought about eating them and then vomiting but consider that to be cruel to the pastry chef who created them.....I'm not that mean!
Just today we went to a wedding in a beautiful field, as we were walking to our seats we passed by a magical display of these little beauties....I looked at my husband and said, "This is going to be a great wedding". A cupcake is like Christmas, each bite a surprise.....I was surprised several times today!
And if you thought I would end this post with out mentioning that little beautiful bundle of love that I can't get enough of.......You were wrong!!!
I am smitten!
Friday, May 6, 2011
And I am ready to start showing him off.......
So feast your eyes on this little angel here......
Elias Nathan Tibbetts
Elias means "Jehovah is God" and Nathan means " Gift of God"
Due date was May the 15th....he decided he had had enough and came 3 weeks early..."Baby Mama" had a rough pregnancy and was put on bed rest, her Graves Disease progressed enough that she will need chemo treatments....On top of that she had toxemia...she was really sick but didn't take care of her self and for months Doctors said ten different things that would be wrong with our little pea pot....after his two week check up and a kidney ultra sound he looks great!!!!! Trust me, the kidneys work fine....Having a baby boy pee in your face is new to me....Anytime his diaper is off he can pee two feet in the air...Or your face! A lot of prayers have been prayed for him and we are rejoicing!!!
There isn't an Adoption 101 class to take and there should be....It was the hardest thing I have ever been a part of and I cant even imagine what my daughter and son in-law have had to go through.....I got to know "Baby Mama" through doctors visits and a few lunches but it didn't prepare me for the birth and removal of this little miracle......When he was born we were celebrating this miracle God had given my daughter and son in-law, while a few doors down the hall another family was grieving the loss of him...A young woman who's heart was broken because she couldn't raise him and a Grandmother who had to let him go....As a Mother I felt like my heart was being ripped out, first for my own child who was in tears for days thinking that she would change her mind and keep him, and then for this other family who couldn't provide for this precious angel....I will tell you that we all cried enough to last a life time....They have 45 days to appeal the adoption...We are counting down.....THEN WE ARE CELEBRATING!!!
On top of all this fun and excitement, my Mama has Lupus and Congestive Heart Failure to go along with the list of her other ailments...My Daddy had prostate surgery.....I will save y'all the jokes my Daddy has said about that!!!!! At least his spirits are up!!! And that's all that's up!!! So he says.......
My dear friends you have been missed.....
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
My parents sold their home and moved again................This I can't talk about! I have decided to spend the new year looking for my real parents, I'm pretty sure their last will be Vanderbilt or Rockefeller....
Today I'm busy with my new project.....Making a colorful sign to stand at the entrance of Walmart , it will read................."Down on Luck Will Work For Laptop"................Wish me luck!
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
We also learned a few more important traveling details, things I'm sure will come in handy the next time we fly...Being parents of a son who works for Delta is awesome...We fly for free!!!! Coming home on a busy business day (Monday) isn't awesome....We didn't come home on Monday....But our luggage did..Sitting at a airport watching completely full planes take off one after another headed toward Atlanta...Was not fun...Neither was being stuck in one airport while your clean underwear was in another.......Next time we fly, our game plan will be a little different(I will keep clean undies in my purse)....I can't wait to go back and visit longer...Thought I would share a few pics of the trip with you...
We were treated like royalty....My Uncle and Aunt drove us around town and took us out to Supper in my Uncles baby....A 1932 Buick that he restored to it's original show room look...I felt like I was going to the prom...This car was beautiful!
The enormous mast on the Star of India at the Maritime Museum
Beautiful San Diego Bay
This water was 62 degrees, I looked around at the people in the water and the ones sitting on the beach wrapped up in blankets and thought to my self....This ain't the Gulf Coast...The dome shape in the background is where the Spruce Goose used to be stored.
Standing on top of Signal Hill.....The view was breathtaking!!!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
I remember when my daughter came home from her honeymoon and said, "Were not using birth control, so if God blesses us with ten kids we will love and provide for everyone of them". That was ten years ago and they are still waiting for that family to arrive...With a strong faith, they've never given up on the thought of a family, even with complications and infertility issues they've held strong to believing God will provide...A month ago, a young woman walked into their lives wanting to give her unborn baby to them...She had scheduled an abortion and couldn't go through with it....Her life was in turmoil and she knew she couldn't raise a baby in her world....This is a wonderful story! But.........The baby isn't due until April and their is still time for her to change her mind....
After meeting her I was saddened by her life and how she wanted to change things and start fresh...I drove home wondering how I should pray...
Of course the most important thing is a healthy Mother and baby, as well as a safe and easy delivery....
My heart wants to pray for her life to change and get on the track she wants....The selfish part of me is afraid that if it does before the baby is born that she will change her mind...And my baby won't be the Mother she yearns to be...
I've quickly realized that this isn't a Lifetime Movie...There are so many emotions and uncertainties involved in an adoption...The only thing that is certain is the Father has signed over his rights..My daughter and son-in-law still need to prepare for a baby that they may or may not get...The Mother is full of emotions, my daughter is full of emotions and I am overwhelmed with the thought of all this....
I will be keeping you posted because our journey has just began......
More to come...............
Sunday, November 28, 2010
My daughter made the trip with me and we decided to come home so she could spend Thanksgiving with her husband (my hubby had already left for my in-laws Wednesday at lunch)...We will go back when they clear him for surgery.
Needing a little holiday spirit we decided to go to Atlanta for the lighting of Macy's Great Tree (which I still call Rich's Tree Lighting)...Every Thanksgiving they show it on television and we have always watched it....Never missed a show....But never went....And every year I cry when the special performer sings the high note on "OH Holy Night" and the lights come on the tree...
Crowds by the thousands filled the parking lot and lined the streets, the spirit of the season was electric...There was a 30 minute pre show followed by an hour of holiday singing ....AMAZING!!! Katherine Mcphee was one of the performers and did this years honors of "OH Holy Night", and seriously it gave me chills...
And just when you thought it was over...A 20 minute fireworks display synchronized to Christmas music...
AWESOME!!!!! We've decided this will be our new Thanksgiving tradition, complete with a stop by the Waffle House (we live in the South people, Waffle House is a tradition in it's self)........
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Monday, November 22, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
(On September 17, 1994 , Alabama's Heather Whitestone was selected as Miss America 1995.) Question: If you could live forever, would you and why? Answer: "I would not live forever, because we should not live forever, because if we were supposed to live forever, then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever, which is why I would not live forever," --Miss Alabama in the 1994 Miss USA contest.
"Whenever I watch TV and see those poor starving kids all over the world, I can't help but cry. I mean I'd love to be skinny like that, but not with all those flies and death and stuff." --Mariah Carey
"Smoking kills. If you're killed, you've lost a very important part of your life," -- Brooke Shields, during an interview to become spokesperson for federal anti-smoking campaign .
"I've never had major knee surgery on any other part of my body," --Winston Bennett, University of Kentucky basketball forward.
"Outside of the killings, Washington has one of the lowest crime rates in the country," --Mayor Marion Barry, Washington , DC .
"That lowdown scoundrel deserves to be kicked to death by a jackass, and I'm just the one to do it," --A congressional candidate in Texas .
"Half this game is ninety percent mental." --Philadelphia Phillies manager, Danny Ozark
"It isn't pollution that's harming the environment. It's the impurities in our air and water that are doing it.." --Al Gore, Vice President
"I love California . I practically grew up in Phoenix ." -- Dan Quayle
"We've got to pause and ask ourselves: How much clean air do we need?" --Lee Iacocca
"The word "genius" isn't applicable in football. A genius is a guy like Norman Einstein." -- Joe Theisman, NFL football quarterback & sports analyst.
"We don't necessarily discriminate. We simply exclude certain types of people." -- Colonel Gerald Wellman, ROTC Instructor.
"Your food stamps will be stopped effective March 1992 because we received notice that you passed away. May God bless you. You may reapply if there is a change in your circumstances." --Department of Social Services, Greenville , South Carolina
"Traditionally, most of Australia 's imports come from overseas." --Keppel Enderbery
"If somebody has a bad heart, they can plug this jack in at night as they go to bed and it will monitor their heart throughout the night. And the next morning, when they wake up dead, there'll be a record." --Mark S. Fowler, FCC Chairman
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
It's been a year since I bought my last purse, and I have suffered greatly....You see, I am a purse connoisseur....I buy a new purse every season....I buy a good purse every season...
I am a purse snob.....(They say admitting the problem is the first step....Right!)
Now that it's time for a new Fall/Winter purse, I promised my husband I'd be smart and practical when buying this years beauty (neither one of the two have I ever been accused of ) so I drank three cappuccino's and had a long drawn out conversation with myself in the car and thought I had set some pretty solid ground rules......I was going in........My plan was simple,I would stand at the end of each isle and look at what got my attention and then check out the price tag...(You know, see if it was a mind over matter kind of thing)..........I walked in tall and tough and proud, ready for the new me................Well, all it took was one good whiff of leather and my eyes glazed over... I caved quicker than Imelda Marcos would at a Manolo Blahnik outlet mall....
I started running through row after row of soft leather, hard leather, patent leather, reds, blacks and browns, all the beautiful colors of Fall.......Just with buckles and straps....
After I noticed security starring at me (I'm sure I looked like a deranged lunatic on crack), I tried to gather my composure, all I could do was hear those stupid little words I said to my husband....Surely he knows me better than that......
Still, with tear filled eyes I walked away empty handed starring at the store through the rear view mirror....
I ran into Walmart for a few items and thought, just thought I would wonder by the purse section....I promise you know.....A Hannah Montana purse is not my idea of downsizing....
The hunt continues.............
Monday, September 27, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Thanks to you all....
Your the Best!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
Saturday, August 7, 2010
And a peaceful walk on the gulf