Can You Say Anxiety.....................

We are planning a trip to the west coast... my husband's son ,my step son works for Delta Airlines and one of the perks is parents fly free........Can you say WOW!!!!! The only thing about that is...I'm a white knuckle butt tighter than a drum flyer....Now, I have flew several times and it doesn't get any easier for me, it's not the actual flying that bothers me it's the twisted metal and charred flesh at the crash site that worries me a little.......My first experience was a nightmare...I was stupid enough to think that it would take a long time for that big plane to take off the ground, I thought I would have enough time to prepare myself for the experience...When that big metal baby shoot up in the air I violated the man next to men.....I'm sure any ability for him to reproduce was lost after that flight....His name was Dave by the way..We were tight!! That's all I'm going say about Dave....It also took me about two weeks to have a bowel movement after that flight....I have since then fly to Canada, New York, Orlando, Arizona, Alaska and Charleston...The last time I stepped on a plane it was a life time movie in the making.... It was raining (of course), I set down at the concourse and threw up twice....when I looked out the window I saw what looked like a plane that a rich person would buy at a yard sale pulling up.....I called my husband and said please pray that this is not my plane....................IT WAS!!!!! We boarded and the flight attendant closed the door with a wheel like hatch that she had to have the pilot help her with.......There was a High School Band from Charleston WV on board that had just won a trophy for something and they were so happy......I WAS NOT HAPPY!!!! I was flying in a storm in a matchbox car..... We taxied down the runway and underneath the airplane there was a noise that sounded like a body was being dragged...The pilot came on the intercom (which was silly because he could have just turned around and yelled at us) and said, "Sorry folks we are experiencing a little mechanical difficulty so were just going pull over and have someone come out and give us a look".......All was not well in my world..............The flight attendant was smiling but nobody else was breathing......If I could have opened that hatch I would have exited the plane......An hour later after the pep boys did their work the pilot came on and said, " Ladies and Gentleman it was just a figment of our imagination...We are cleared to take off"...............And in my outside voice I said, " Oh no were not"........The flight attendant politely asked my to not upset the other passengers....But the man beside me looked at her and said, " Look mam we all heard the noise".......... And the whole plane chimed in......It was the quietest trip I've ever been on.....No one said a word....But I'm sure everyone prayed.I KNOW I DID..My anxiety could be caused from all the Discovery Channel shows like Terror in the Sky's or Flight Disasters that I'm glued to before I fly...It's my way of tormenting myself...So far it's working....Anyone else share my fears or are all of y'all normal...