As a single parent my daughter and I have been through a lot of journeys (as we call them ) together, I've always told her the things we went through would help "build her character", most of those trails made her the strong beautiful woman she is today..But nothing we every went through prepared her for this, and for once I have nothing to offer her but a shoulder to cry on and a heart full of support....
I remember when my daughter came home from her honeymoon and said, "Were not using birth control, so if God blesses us with ten kids we will love and provide for everyone of them". That was ten years ago and they are still waiting for that family to arrive...With a strong faith, they've never given up on the thought of a family, even with complications and infertility issues they've held strong to believing God will provide...A month ago, a young woman walked into their lives wanting to give her unborn baby to them...She had scheduled an abortion and couldn't go through with it....Her life was in turmoil and she knew she couldn't raise a baby in her world....This is a wonderful story! But.........The baby isn't due until April and their is still time for her to change her mind....
After meeting her I was saddened by her life and how she wanted to change things and start fresh...I drove home wondering how I should pray...
Of course the most important thing is a healthy Mother and baby, as well as a safe and easy delivery....
My heart wants to pray for her life to change and get on the track she wants....The selfish part of me is afraid that if it does before the baby is born that she will change her mind...And my baby won't be the Mother she yearns to be...
I've quickly realized that this isn't a Lifetime Movie...There are so many emotions and uncertainties involved in an adoption...The only thing that is certain is the Father has signed over his rights..My daughter and son-in-law still need to prepare for a baby that they may or may not get...The Mother is full of emotions, my daughter is full of emotions and I am overwhelmed with the thought of all this....
I will be keeping you posted because our journey has just began......
More to come...............